Today around 5:30 I walked outside and found the sun shining and the breeze blowing and a storm of cotton blowing around the house and the fields across from my house like a snow storm in the middle of winter, it was beautiful! At that moment staring out into the beautiful fluke of nature that spread before me like a painting or a scene in a movie I thought, why dont we appreciate the small things more? I find myself getting caught up in the daily hustle and bustle and forgetting the wonder, joy and amazing privilege it is to be alive, healthy, and have great family and friends. Working with people with developmental disabilities reminds me daily how lucky I am and how perfect my future career is for me. Life is wonderful and the more we start appreciating the small things the happier and more positive we become. When I talk about the small things I mean looking at situations differently, taking a negative situation and looking for the things in that situation to take make positive. It is really hard at first but lately I find myself laughing after I think about the positives of each situation and weigh it out. Why waste this precious time on earth being a negative nelly and sulking around...that's my new life motto!

I have to say after seeing that beautiful sceen of cotton flowing around my house I ran to grab my camera and started snapping away.! Life is wonderful! Love is wonderful! PEACE!

goodbye my past, hello tommarrow

Because of my pain, I am stronger

Because you hurt me, I walk taller

I never knew the person I could be

until you told me you stopped loving me

Thanks for the memories, The good and the bad

Thanks for the comfort, and thanks for making me sad

because without the pain I would not have grown

I this feeling of happyness I could have never know..

to his ex....

Ill love him like you never did....

and treat him like you couldnt....

Ill look into his eyes and smile...

and do things for him you wouldnt.....

Ill make sure he feels special every day..

and knows how much I care......

I know he will never feel alone...

because I will always be there...

You lost someone really special....

But that is more my gain.....

Because I am now in his life...
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nd Ill make sure my love never feels pain....

The story of Elizabeth and Terry

Ok so here is my first day of the ranting section of my future writing career.
I am going to tell you all a story ( the names and details are changed to protect those involved... : ) ), The once was a story of two friends Elizabeth and Terry who became friends while they were in college and were inseparable for the next two years of there friendship. Elizabeth and Terry did everything together, working out, watching T.V, Going out, pretty much from the time they woke up to the time they went to sleep they were together. Elizabeth was always there for Terry and Terry was always there for Elizabeth. Elizabeth would always come to the rescue if Terry was in trouble, or was just upset, no matter how late or what the circumstance. I digress, times change and Elizabeth graduated and moved away, upsetting Elizabeth and Terry's friendship. Terry and Elizabeth made time to see each other each moth and would do there best to keep in touch. One day Elizabeth was really upset and needed her friend, she called, called, text-ed, and no reply. This behavior was not really like Terry so Elizabeth began to get worried. Finally Elizabeth received a text from Terry two days later saying he was ok, just busy. Well Elizabeth understood, her feelings were hurt because Terry didn't think to make time to let her know he was ok. Well Elizabeth replied to the text and was happy to know things were ok. Terry text-ed her later that evening that he missed her, and wanted to see her. Eager Elizabeth jumped at the chance to see her oldest and dearest friend. She offered to jump in her car and drive to see him immediately, Terry said he was going to take a nap and he would talk to her later. Three hours later and no phone call from Terry, Elizabeth began to wonder. Two days no phone call from Terry, This friendship she held so dear began to slip from her fingers. This is were the story ends folks. Still no phone call, Elizabeth sits and wonders why her dearest friend, the one person she held to a high standard and became so close to her one day decides life's a little to busy for her. Knowing the difference between men and women, and feeling lucky to have developed such a close non sexual relationship with a man Elizabeth wonders if she is being to dramatic or if feelings are feelings. What is Elizabeth to do? is she to talk with Terry? let it be and see if Terry approaches her? How should Elizabeth approach the situation knowing that she has to have boundries in order to keep there friendship and relationship the same.

I ask you friends what is she to do?

I guess the first thing I should start off doing is documenting what the heck Im up to at this point in my life. I am 23 years old and a graduate of Colorado State University, I graduated with a degree in Human Development and Family studies. May 2008. After Graduating that May an old crush texted me, Jeff, asking me out when I came back to Pueblo to visit my parents. I freaked, I came home to visit shortly after, Jeff and I had our first date May 25.2008 and we have been together since. We now live in a wonderful home in Pueblo, Jeff works as a chief and I am a case manager, I work for PDI a place that deals mainly with people with developmental disabilities. I love my job, I love the people I work with and right now it fits my life perfectly. I dont like living in Pueblo though, by making the decision to move to Pueblo I left behind some of the most important people in my life, though decision. Over the four years I lived in Fort Collins and went to school, I made some of the best friends anyone could ask for, we had amazing memories together and I dont know where I would be without these key people. I miss them all very much, we have done well with keeping in touch and trying to see each other over the past year but like the changing time, we all have changed.
Jeff and I have a great relationship, he is different than any guy I have ever dated, he is sweet, caring, sensitive, and my best friend and partner. We both have big dreams, we would like to travel and see the world, ending in Hawaii. Life is very exciting right now and I feel like I could take on the world. On to the other love of my life, Kona, she is a border collie pit bull mix and she is the love of my life. Kona turned one year on april 9.2010 she is wonderful and a great addition to our family. I spend my days with Kona, walking in the park, hiking, just watching her discover the world, its amazing. She is so curious but such a cuddlebug!!!!
Thats a small update on where I am at this point on the wonderful journey we call life..I am so excited about the possibilities and can hardly wait to see what commin!